A Giant Bucket

Right now I really have nothing to be discouraged about. One quarter left in the year, the weather's ok, and I'm doing fine in all my classes. Maybe I'm just so used to being bummed like I was all the way through the rest of winter that I have to find something to be depressed about. Like right now, I'm annoyed with people. People who think that they can give dating advice to me despite the fact that they are utterly clueless about anything of that variety. I may be a pathetic loser, but at least I'm a pathetic loser who has a girlfriend, so they can't (or shouldn't) be telling me what I'm doing wrong. I guess that's just the weakness of my culture: no clue about anything involving women. I suppose I'm doing something right, it's been 5 freaking months, after all. Meh, I think I'm being pathetic because I cant stop being sarcastic when i need to, but that's also totally unimportant. Anyhoo, I have homework that I should be doing, so I hereby call this post CLOSED.

I have felt like crap these last few days. I don't know what it is. Everything that's usually just a minor setback in the week feels like the worst news I've heard in my life. All it is is maybe something have to do in the evening or just that I didn't finish some homework, but no matter how insignificant I tell myself the issue is, it just seems to kick me in the face. I think it may have something to do with my schedule change I got for this semester. It's thrown me so out of what I'm used to, it's almost like going to a new school. I need another long break. I neeeeeed to get away from people. Everyone seems to get on my nerves. I'm even getting on my own nerves, I keep screwing up miserably in simple crap like having conversations or even making eye contact with people. Yes, eye contact. Sounds stupid, I know. But it is incredibly frustrating to think of what a bad impression you left on someone because you wouldn't even look them in the face. School is driving me nuts, I need a freaking break.

So, I just went to see Epic movie. And it is possibly the most dreadful movie I've seen in my LIFE. Ugh. Massive waste of money. But at least at the theater we got to see someone drop a baby. Don't panic, the baby was in a solid plastic car seat/carrier and was being held maybe 3 inches off the ground. What was really funny about the situation was hearing:

*whump*

OH SHI-

right after we come in. Again I say, the baby was fine. The above noises were the only humor in the occasion. I kinda wish the baby hadn't been involved because then I wouldn't feel guilty about it.

In related news: Andrew actually uses Flash!! see below!!

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Happy new year. Happy going back to school with 2 take-home tests done in about two seconds, no science study guide, and fin*stab*als to worry about next week. Happy my summers going to be really busy again. Happy sucky part of the year. Happy....feet.

I'm not sure what I've been thinking lately. I've had all of break to study for finals and finish my homework, but all I really have the urge to do is play Maplestory. I seriously did nothing yesterday but eat and play maplestory. And I think that if I had the choice I would have done that all break. Neh. I've been sort of depressed since christmas, and I cant figure out why. Besides the obvious "thispartoftheyearmakesmewanttoripmyeyesoutIamnotevenjoking" thing, I really have no reason to. I had a good christmas, a good break, and all that stuff. I did get Flash, and that is reason to rejoice. I just feel weird.

Guess I forgot to update in November. Nothing truly interesting happened, so I guess it doesn't really make a difference. I made symphonic band and got a nicer french horn, and we got a snow day last friday. thats about it. Right now I'm really just waiting for Christmas break. 18 more days... It's always a really painful wait. ><

I'm doing better in Biology, and I'm reeeeeeeeeally far behind on reading in LA (Count of Monte Cristo=BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING xP). But considering that the only test on it is a take home exam for Christmas break, I can probably get by with a summary online. Yes it's lazy. But I really don't care, as long as it gets done. Other than those two things, I have absolutely nothing remarkable happenning in school. And I haven't done a whole lot elsewhere, so really for the last month I've been bored. Bleh.

*falls asleep on keyboard* cxxxxdfccccccccccccccc

Given that I havent updated this since last month, a whole lot has happened. So I'll try to summarize it.
that which has happened from Sept. 27 to Oct. 22
-Obtained a new cat.
-Played Maplestory till my eyes bled.
-Had a good competition at Metamora (1st in class, Best Percussion).
-Had constant band practice that made me want to kill myself.
-Started CCD again. T_T
-Got my Paintball gun. ^_^
-Hated Biology.
-Fired pumpkins with a catapult.
-Anything else I forgot. (I'm so helpful)

But the biggest thing was ISU/U of I/ISU-again yesterday. We left the school at 6:00 AM with a police escort (?!?!?) and wearing uniforms. We performed at 8-something, and in my opinion, we screwed up a whole lot. Yet we won Best in Class, Best Winds, Best Percussion, Best General Effect, and Best audience reaction. And we got an automatic seat in Night Finals. So, after the awards, we went off to U of I in civilian clothes. We got there about three hours early, so we watched some other bands, then changed, then got ready to perform. And perform we did. Once again, I thought we did a pretty crappy job, yet somehow we got Best in Class and Best Percussion again. After dashing out of Memorial Stadium, we drove back to ISU for night finals. By this time it was pouring down rain and we were all soaked. But we went out there and had the best performance we've ever had. I felt so awesome about how we did, I thought we'd at least do as good or better than last year. I guess we didn't. 11th out of 12. As opposed to 7th last year. It was like being punched in the face. I wasn't expecting to get first (no, Marion Catholic has reserved that right for eternity), but I was expecting to do better than second to last! And everyone says, "well at least you made it to night finals!" I knew we were going to be in night finals. I was there to live up to last year at night finals. But I guess we didn't. Oh well, there's always BOA.

So, I'm finally taking the time to update again. And, school is boring me to death. And, band is sucking up all my free time. And, I'm bored right now too. I hate the school year T_T. I'm starting to see what people mean about band people. People in band are jerks. Or, everyone that's not a freshman in band is a jerk. Seriously, all of the sophmores and seniors are too wildly fanatical about band to allow it to be any fun. They don't think it's good enough that we can kill anyone around here even with a bad performance. We can't relax just a little bit. It's like being in a freaking Nazi marching band. I hate them all.

Turns out I have CCD this year not on Sunday like I thought but on Wednesday. AGAIN. And It starts next freaking week. My year's gone to hell. Nothing's fun anymore T_T. But whatever, I have the weekend free, at least I think I do, there's probably something gay I don't want to do.

I'm not emo, life just sucks right now.

*dances despite the fact school goes back to normal tomorrow*

It's getting back to Fall. I'm sitting in the basement, wearing my favorite black hoodie, and it's cold outside. And I have to think about school again. I think that now, after a week and a half, I can tell which teachers are going to be good and which are going to be CRAZY NAZI COMMUNISTS (I am aware of how little sense that makes)!!!!! Such as Mr. Lynn. Seems like a nice guy. But it turns out he's one of those teachers who likes to make you feel stupid if you say something wrong. He also seems to think that since we are the honors class, we are capable of doing excessive amounts of homework without considering stabbing ourselves. Not true. We've had about three things due almost every day so far, and during study hall I'm enveloped in Science things that I don't know anything about, because they are totally unrelated to what we did in class. So, I'm not going to be liking biology this year. At least that's the way things are going now.

And as I'm sure everyone's heard, Steve Irwin got killed. When I first heard about it, I thought it was some kind of sick counter-joke, so we could never say "crikey" again without feeling guilty. But really, I think it sucks. Not only can we not say crikey anymore, there's a big piece of TV missing now. He will be missed. :(

I've got a great new shirt concept. I'll put it together and post it soon.

School till 3:00 is teh suxor!!!1

Bye

Bleh. Sorry about the emo rant, I'm just having trouble getting used to school again. But ironically, since the first day of school, I've had an evil cold that filled my sinuses with badness. I actually don't feel so bad about school anymore, now that I've gotten to rest this weekend and all. The amounts of homework we've got so far have been scary for the first week. Thank God I have a study hall now, or I'd be dead. The football game on Friday was an absolute embarrassment for the football team, but a great show for the band. Seriously, I don't know why everyone's so enthusiastic about the sucky football team when there's better groups at the High School. I mean, we won more awards last year than they have in probably the last ten years. Yet somehow everyone clings to the biggest group of jerks in existence. Maybe people aren't interested in band, and thats fine. But there no reason to freaking resent us! I think that our school needs to reevaluate where the talent is.

So long!!! °n°

God. School started again. I'm so unbelievably mad right now. Because I know that until May, my life will be reduced to homework, getting up early, depression, arguing, and getting sick. I hate this half of the year. It's so stupid, especially if you're starting high school. Today I barely had any idea of what was going on. I'm so pissed. God. I hate winter. I hate school. All I want is the summer I missed. I hate watching all the good stuff about summer erode into cold, short, miserable, school-is-your-life-now days. I hate days where you get out of school and it's getting dark, and when you're done with homework the day is over because it's really late or certain people have taken over the computers. And if there's something you don't have done, you can't freaking sleep because you're worried about if you can get it done tomorrow, and what your nazi teacher will do to you if you don't have it done. With band, I'll have absolutely no time to do homework until almost december. I don't want to worry about this bull, I just want to have a few more weeks free. School does more bad than it does good. I just want it all to be over.

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I do.

*blink*

Today and Yesterday I helped out at Jr. High band camp. I'm not signed up to help, but somehow I'm getting a t-shirt for what it looks like is going to be three days of helping. Oh well, at least they have designs this year for shirts, not just crappy catalouge templates. Other than that, all I've done this week is band practice and get SUCKED INTO THE GAPING MAW OF DEVIANTART!!!! After like half a year of inactivity, I've totally gone nuts with my page. I've got 5 new pics, regular journal updates, and 1000+ pageviews! I'm getting back in the swing of things since my art doesn't half-suck now. See the beauty! http://ranfanman.deviantart.com/ my new ID is teh shizz. enjoy.

Kthxbai

I haven't done anything in the last week except:

•Band practices
•go to Starved Rock yesterday
•get new shoes

And it has been great. Nothing to be said except it's nice to have free time in summer.

Oh, I guess I went to Freshmen orientation, too. High School approaches. I ph33r.

ta~

I got's a spiffy new icon made in like two seconds.

www.deadmonkeycomics.com <<< check it out.

And yesterday, I went paintballing. very fun. I got shot in the back at close range, so I've got two big bruises with welts. It was the first time I'd ever been shot too, so it kind of traumatized me. But we played a lot of games. I made some kills, and I only got hurt one more time. I really wish my mom would open up to paintball, because I think it's really a great sport that I'd like to do more often. She thinks it'll make me into a homicidal maniac, but it's really just having a good time. oh well.

nothing to do this week... happiness... o^3^o

You know, it's weird. At the start of this summer I was glad to be out of school and looking forward to some off time. Now I'm sitting here, thinking of everything I've done in such a short amount of time, and school is coming right up. In just a few weeks, I went to New Mexico, two summer camps (worked at one, camped at the other), and EIU, where I learned more marching band things then I'll ever need to know. A lot has changed this summer. Now I'm almost looking forward to school, just as an escape from these last, painful weeks of summer. But I'm going to savor these weeks, because I'll probably never get this kind of free time again.

Chiefs game tonight. Paintball tomorrow. Nothing next week that I know of. Chillage will occur.

Yesterday I ended up going to Six Flags in St. Louis on a whim. Wasn't the best Six Flags trip of my life (it was hot ;_;), but was fun nonetheless. other than that, I've done nothing since band camp. And I won't be doing anything else all summer!!! It just hit me today, x3 I'm finally done with all the work. I can do things again! Sweet Jesus! all I have to look forward to is band on tuesday's and thursdays. Oh and that school thing. Kind of important. But I'm getting back to summer, and all is well. in the words of Dom,

ta~

Good lourde, I'm tired. Band Camp was fun, but so freaking TIRING!! Now I know youre all thinking, If youre so tired why are you still awake typing? Because I want to, people. Graagghaghfffffffff.

But anyhows. Between protecting the innocent from Mara *shudder*, Crazy Taxi, and Visual basics, band camp was a crapload of stuff to do in a week. We got through the drill for part one and the intro, which is half of the show and a major accomplishment. I now know like everything that I ever needed to know about marching. I can't take anymore. I have a feeling that this season is going to be beyond anything we've done before.

Also, I'm glad to be back and have the rest of my summer free *despite the fact it's like only three more weeks*. I've been so busy all summer, and now it just stops... I may be crazy the next few days. You know. I won't be WORRYING about anything. I can RELAX. It's gonna be weird.

Another thing. Any suggestions on how to fend off a person who:
•is hideous
•is annoying
•is an in-your-face know-it-all
•is constantly hitting on your friends
•is totally numb to the suggestion that maybe people don't like her, and
•is an impediment to having a good time at band camp?

Yes, that's right. I'm talking about MARA. The freak who complicated this week so much by constantly hitting on PC (who can't have a girlfriend by religion, which she definitly knows) and Carl (who hates her but is too nice to tell her). We had to constantly hint that, you know mara, maybe your stupid jokes and flirting aren't being appreciated? She was totally callous to the idea that PC and Carl despise her, which is freaking ridiculous because they're making it as obvious as possible without being rude. She really touched a nerve when she put her arm around Carl right as someone took a picture of him. We dropped the polite and told her to seriously get away from Carl. Did she listen? of course not. Maybe she preys on people who she knows are too polite to run away like their common sense tells them to. Or maybe she likes PC because they both have moustaches. In any case, this is a problem in serious need of correcting. It shall be worked on.

Wow. I spend like 10 minutes typing the first half, then like an hour typing about how much the world hates Mara. I guess that says something about my band camp experience. It was fun, with mara being the slight annoyance in the system. Just so you know.

Long entry. random typing. now I need to sleep. *dies on the spot*

Yay, finally done with scout events for the summer! Canyon Camp, after working at Ingersoll, seems pretty boring. Maybe it's because I worked at Ingersoll and I was a camper at CC, but this week just seemed very dull and slow compared to Ingersoll. Ah well, I had some fun. Now it's mini-camp and Band camp for me. But not before some well deserved break time.

*relaaaaaaaaxes for a week*

Part two of the "useupallmyfreetimethissummer" project is complete. And I'm glad to say that after CITing for a week and a half, I am alive and well. I have the rest of this week to chill, then Phase three begins, the so-called "Canyoncamp" phase. This will result in me being gone another week. But I don't want to think about that now, I just want to relax. Today teh Cavaliers are in town, and are practicing at McLellan park at this very moment! I'm going to watch them at 3:00. I strongly suggest that everyone else do so too. Ok, I hungor. off to lunch. Just notification that I havent died yet.

So, it's off to work tomorrow. I should be packing now, I have no idea why I'm not. I would just like to tell everyone I haven't talked to or made any means of contact with in the last few weeks/months that I'm sorry X( I wish i could around and do stuff with everyone, but I've had so much to do lately... I would like to be home on IM talking to friends or out doing stuff than sitting around doing CIT, but I'll eventually need the job. It's sad that this is how my summers will be from now on, but it's the way it has to be. Sorry :/

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That being said, I can now say that tomorrow I flee to Ingersoll to work at the pool as a CIT for a week. It'll be fun and all, but it's a big change from sitting around my whole summer, and it just feels sort of...different. However, I don't think that anything there will seem as hard now that I've experienced Philmont. And in two years I can get paid to work there, so this will give me first dibs on good jobs (I hope it will, at least XD). Just another reminder that I'll be gone this week.

And half of next week.

And the whole week after that.

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-∆- I'm going to diiiieeeeeeeeeeeee


ok bye.